Time travels at the speed of light sometimes. This is what seems to have been happening through the month of June. I don’t think I have had any time to sit down on my computer or even time to think about what I should write on this blog. Summer speeds away and so do my kids and their growth. We hit birthday season. W turn 9, C turned 5, and I turned ???. We sped through two weeks of bible school, one of which I volunteered to be a crew leader and I led 6, 5 year olds around the church to their different classes. This was fun and also exhausting. I am unsure if I will do it again next year especially since my youngest will be old enough to be part of the Bible school.
This week has been the first week in about a month I haven’t been in town almost every day. Yet I am still very busy. Painting our deck, cleaning our yard and making a back yard paradise.
I don’t think I have written about our deck project yet. After my mom passed away we received some inheritance money. To honor my mom I decided to use it to build a deck. (Well Adam did most of the work). It was so fun to get out there and drill holes in the ground, use an impact screw driver and watch Adam enjoy building something of his own. We had our friend help us a few days and he did a wonderful job making everything level and creating a beautiful outdoor space that we can use for many years to come. I also bought a table and chairs set for the deck and will be making a beautiful fire ring along with moving some of our kids activity areas to the yard closest to the deck. (trampoline, slide, playhouse I scored for 15$) We now have what I call a glorified kiddie pool and all the fun we could dream of for the rest of the summer. It is a work in progress and things are still progressing. This comes a problem when you can’t run the chainsaw but limbs need trimmed and you can’t use the loader but buildings need moved. So I wait for A to help me.
I am so thankful for this deck already. It is so beautiful.
Right now my emotions and thoughts are mumble jumble. Mothers day did me in and then my birthday followed and wasn’t any easier. But life speeds on whether I want it to or not. My kids are growing and changing and life is changing too. We are contemplating some big changes to our future and trust in God is something that needs to be the for-front of my heart and life. Its hard not having my advice giver close by. Its hard not to be able to call to tell her something I am excited about or sad about.
My sister has become my main advice giver. She said I am like the trunk of our family tree. Now my choice is to be planted by the river of life that springs out joy and love and grace and trust and faith.
I am looking forward to seeing what God has in store for us. We have already received some exciting new about our boys being accepting to the Christian school we applied for. We also are looking forward to a family vacation and then a trip with just me and the kids coming both in July. After that we have a full extra two weeks off school because our school doesn’t start until after labor day.
God is so faithful waiting for me to come to him and then my faith waivers and he waits for me. He says “I am here my child” “Come to me all you who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest.” Rest in the Lord is so difficult in trials among the valley. But he is the lamp to my feet that guides my step. My God is bigger than all the trials I have and am facing right now.
I know this isn’t very uplifting but my progress has been so imperfect recently. Why is it easy to go to the right place when things are tough but when things seem easier I always loose focus and think hey I am OK without God right now. Then I get back into this emotional slump. I always seem to fall out of habits that are so good when things start feeling better. I need to get back in the Word and follow his commands to spend time with him each day.
Imperfect progress is what life is about. In parenting, In my marriage, In my relationship with the Lord. They are all imperfect. My house cleaning, paintings, My photography. It is all imperfect. Thankfully we don’t need to be perfect. That is not a requirement for God. He wants us to love him and serve him each day of our lives. But perfection is not received until the race is complete and we are in heaven. Thank You Jesus!