The Journey

Making imperfect progress is the title of this blog and over the last year I have been in the battle of my life, making imperfect progress all the way. God is fighting my battles for me (There is a song like that) But I too am fighting daily an enemy I can not see. He is a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour. I am his number one prey, my family, my husband, my children. Actually we are all his prey. Some he has a hold on and he turns them in the direction he desires and some are Gods children and he can influence their choices only if they let him in. The last year has been influenced by him and I have been walking a journey I never thought I would have to walk.

I choose love, I choose joy, I choose Jesus everyday. People tell me you need to choose the easy way out and I continued to choose love. I know that marriage is the hardest journey I will ever walk and my marriage has been through the hardest time of my life. God is making me stronger, He is making me realize that I can’t do this life without him. He is forming me into the masterpiece he sees the end of, but I see all the mumbled colors that just look like a big blob of brown nastiness.

He has said Jenny Wren I choose you to walk along side this man, I choose you to mother these precious children alone (but I am not actually alone) for a year, I choose you to take the responsibility of a household all on yourself. Not because he thinks I am strong but because he knows he is strong and that in my weakness He is made stronger. I can choose to rely on him and walk this road that is the hardest road I have been down, in his arms with him carrying me and other times He is walking beside me leading the way or I can choose the hard way and do it because I AM STRONG – actually I am not- and do it in my own strength. I choose to be carried. I am weary, I need you to carry me Lord.

Love endures through ALL circumstances has been my verse that I continue to go to and rely on. God didn’t ask me to love when its comfortable for me, he asks me to love through it all. I am so excited to see what God will teach me through this year. Do you want to walk this journey with me? I am going to try to use my writing again as an outlet, because lets face it being a single mom is really tough, and I would love to bring you on this journey I am going on and yell from the roof tops what God is doing for me! Come join me and follow my blog.

Jenny Wren